October 25, 2011

Self Diagnosis

I have to write this down. 
Feel free to NOT read this post if it is just too much information.

Remember last year when I was at the emergency room and the ER doctor told me that my chances of having spinal meningitis were about as good as me winning the LOTTERY???
And remember when he told me not to have a spinal, but that it was up to me?
And remember how hard it was for me to decide to have a spinal but I just went with my deepest feelings which I feel to be right? (thank you Holy Ghost)
And remember when I did have Spinal Meningitis {What a way to win the lotto?} and ended up spending a week in the hospital?

Well I remember. It was so weird. But through prayer and the Holy Ghost I just sort of knew what was wrong with me.

And now I think that I have Menouria. If you knew how rare this is you would probably not pay much attention to me just like my Doctors.

Menouria is { Menstruation occurring through the urinary bladder as a result of vesicouterine fistula}

So far I'm the only one who thinks that I have this, but I REALLY think that I do.

Remember last month when I posted that horrible picture of my urine {Here}.

Well it started again today. Just out of the blue. Perfect urine...straight to Bleeding To Death Urine. So this has happened {THREE} consecutive months in a row.

Remember when my Doctor completely bisected my bladder during my C-section in February?
Remember how he then had to sew my bladder closed and I lost half of the size of my bladder?
Remember then how the nurse shoved the Foley of my catheter through my suture line and blew the Foley up inside of my Uterus.

Ya, well I think that there is still a hole there {fistula}. And I think that this is why I am so prone to infection, incontinence, and bleeding every month.

I know that people are going to think that I am nuts, but I'm going with it.

I have two doctor's appointments in American Fork next week and I am really {cross fingers} hoping that they will be able to figure out what is wrong with me.

I'm actually REALLY hoping that I am wrong. Because if I am right it will mean a major surgery to correct it.

So until I know more I am just going to keep saying my prayers, taking care of myself, working out, eating right, and trying to stay positive {which is kind of getting hard. Good thing I have the whole month of November to think about my blessings and be thankful}.

I have much to be thankful for. I really do.

Okay, I feel better.

11 comments:

Jaime said...

Holey Moley! (pun intended). That sounds horrible! I hope they figure out that it is something small and simple to fix. Best of luck!

Rozylass said...

Wow, sounds like you know your own body. My prayers are with you. It will be good to have this resolved.

Steph said...

Oh my gosh! That sounds so awful! I hope they figure out what it is so you can heal. Having a chronic infection is miserable! Good luck in AF!

coco said...

You go girl! Listen to yourself and your body. I am proud of you for taking control of things. What you explained makes perfect sense. Look me up when you're in town, I want to see how skinny you are! And I'm wondering what doctors you're seeing--maybe mine? I love my doctor. Good luck!

Jill said...

Good heavens this sounds awful! I don't think the surgery to fix this is that bad though, I saw a documentary about it and didn't appear major and seemed to solve the problem with almost 100% effectiveness!

Do you have time to get together while you're in town?

Traci said...

yikes! keep us posted!! hope u get some answers too! will keep u in my prayers! hang in there!!

Jocelyn Christensen said...

We believe you! Take care of yourself!!!

Candice said...

So sorry that you're going through this...can't imagine. Sending positive thoughts your way. I'm your newest follower and would love for you to follow back!

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Ashley said...

In my experience its best to trust yourself and your instincts. We know our bodies! I'm sorry your experiencing this and hope things turn out good.
I stopped by from the blog hop and just became a follower. Would love for you to check out my blog.

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thatgoodpart said...

Man...I'm sorry about what you're going through - and I hope that you are able to find some answers soon.

While I haven't gone through the physical trials you're experiencing, I have had my own, and I was struck by the harrowing experience illness is. Pain is tough to go through! We are kind of disconnected from it (thankfully) - ie, we can take an pill when we have a headache, etc. But when illness comes, and answers don't it is really hard! It is hard to stay positive and hopeful and grateful.

So keep up the good work. There are other people out here - like me - ones that just read your blog and stuff, who pray for you and hope for the best.

Best of all, there is Christ - who has already suffered all, and he knows how to perfectly comfort you. A big part of Christ's atonement was going through physical pain and sickness. When I was suffering through a physical trial, I felt so much peace knowing that Christ knew, and that He could strengthen me.

Good luck!
-chococatania

TigerEyes2001 said...

Oh, I would have just about had a stroke if my urine looked like that! I would be terrified! I really hope they find out what's going on with you and fix it soon, that can't be good. Hi! New follower from the FNF blog hop! I hope you'll stop by my blog and follow back! Thanks! Through the Eyes of a Tiger